Once I had asked Sebastian to leave, and filed for divorce, it became obvious very quickly that I couldn’t afford the house by myself. I […]
Built on Lies
The writing was on the wall, he was cheating and had been for a long time, and I needed to make a choice. Did I […]
F.E.A.R.
Definition of fear 1a: an unpleasant often strong emotion caused by anticipation or awareness of danger After 4.5 years of S-Anon recovery, I have come to realize […]
I’ll Call the Hospital and Let them Know You’re Coming
Throughout the pregnancy, I really struggled physically. I was so sick that I couldn’t keep anything down without medication. I ended up in the hospital […]
Over-responsibility
What am I responsible for? Really. That’s a huge question. My mom response wants to say, everything. My daughter/sister response wants to say, everyone. My […]
I can’t make you love me
If I’m being honest, Sebastian disappeared a lot, all of the time but it became seriously apparent once I was pregnant. Yes, he was gone […]
What Goes Around
After the Florida trip, things had changed. I found a new job but was constantly worried about every thing that I said and did. I’m […]
One room, two beds
When I first interviewed for this small company, I had just returned from Vegas and was freshly married. I put on my best suit and […]
Leave it to Beaver
Returning from Vegas married flipped a switch in my head. I was going to be the best wife anyone had ever seen. I had no […]
HELP! I need somebody…
About 13 years into my relationship with Sebastian I had reached a point where I couldn’t hear a song or be alone with my thoughts. […]