Bliss, I was in heaven. Sebastian and I were back together and all seemed right with the world. I mean, kind of. I was still […]
Smoke and Mirrors
Through my 12-step program, I have discovered that I have a huge fear of abandonment. Like HUGE. This stems from my father not being in […]
Letters of the Heart
A letter to my ex. I just read a letter you sent me from jail. This is the most open you have ever been with […]
All by Myself
Once I had asked Sebastian to leave, and filed for divorce, it became obvious very quickly that I couldn’t afford the house by myself. I […]
Built on Lies
The writing was on the wall, he was cheating and had been for a long time, and I needed to make a choice. Did I […]
F.E.A.R.
Definition of fear  1a: an unpleasant often strong emotion caused by anticipation or awareness of danger After 4.5 years of S-Anon recovery, I have come to realize […]
I’ll Call the Hospital and Let them Know You’re Coming
Throughout the pregnancy, I really struggled physically. I was so sick that I couldn’t keep anything down without medication. I ended up in the hospital […]
Over-responsibility
What am I responsible for? Really. That’s a huge question. My mom response wants to say, everything. My daughter/sister response wants to say, everyone. My […]
I can’t make you love me
If I’m being honest, Sebastian disappeared a lot, all of the time but it became seriously apparent once I was pregnant. Yes, he was gone […]
What Goes Around
After the Florida trip, things had changed. I found a new job but was constantly worried about every thing that I said and did. I’m […]