Throughout the pregnancy, I really struggled physically. I was so sick that I couldn’t keep anything down without medication. I ended up in the hospital […]
Over-responsibility
What am I responsible for? Really. That’s a huge question. My mom response wants to say, everything. My daughter/sister response wants to say, everyone. My […]
I can’t make you love me
If I’m being honest, Sebastian disappeared a lot, all of the time but it became seriously apparent once I was pregnant. Yes, he was gone […]
What Goes Around
After the Florida trip, things had changed. I found a new job but was constantly worried about every thing that I said and did. I’m […]
One room, two beds
When I first interviewed for this small company, I had just returned from Vegas and was freshly married. I put on my best suit and […]
Leave it to Beaver
Returning from Vegas married flipped a switch in my head. I was going to be the best wife anyone had ever seen. I had no […]
HELP! I need somebody…
About 13 years into my relationship with Sebastian I had reached a point where I couldn’t hear a song or be alone with my thoughts. […]
Only You…
It took two weeks to get Sebastian out on bail. Two weeks of collect calls, daily letters and a single visit through glass at the […]
This is a collect call from the county jail
It took a few weeks of constant mind games, late nights, fighting, making up and silent treatments before I finally managed to move out. I […]
Wanted: Woman Looking for Man
In working with my therapist, she recently asked me what I wanted to focus on in the next year. After some processing I responded with, […]